... you find a draft from month ago and remember you writing it. i found such a draft. at the time i wrote it i woke up at 5 pm and worked with some coffee breaks till 11 am. but like i predicted i changed my life. now i wake up in the morning and stopped working too hard. i relaxed for some weeks and loosened my project schedule.
as i re-read the draft i thought about my obsession with writing code. i suppose one can call me a nerd (but my appearance differs from the common nerd-look). i like the term geek better ... dont know why. anyhow - when i was first called a nerd by my father some years ago i was really angry. i threw some mean words back. i apologise for this reaction. now i know being a nerd is not a bad thing. nerds are generally friendly people. they are open-minded and interested in science.
here is the original draft:
... i ask myself: "isn't life strange?"
in the last week i spend more time heating honey-coconut-milk than i was exposed to direct sunshine. sitting in front of two 19" screens all night long, listening to fabulous djs and hacking some lines of code. sounds fun? it is! on the other hand it is an alternate reality. when i go outside i see a different world than before.
everyone lives in his own reality but most of them have similar settings. i take my freedom to do what i want as long as i am not constrained by anything. if i can work and learn much more efficient without all that boring workday routine, waiting time, fashion stress or any other unimportant distraction, i do it.
i am not really as free as it sounds. i usually change my reality after a quartal or so in favor of a more compatible one.
the next change is already in reach. with starting my studies in computer science and (soon) my company, i have to organize myself, my time and my work.